I STILL DO

HIIIIIIII! im updating again :) hahaha yeaap. i performed for open house today. performance wasnt that good tho :( maybe because we didnt have the chance to go through the steps before going on stage. hopefully our performance on saturday will be much better. haha this year's open house is better than last year's. well, to me la. this year like more fun. and the goodie bag itself is better. hais. hahaha. im so sleepyyyyy but i have to do my practical questions. 2 more! lets go. and i want to watch ombak rindu pls. hopefully can watch tmr. pls pls. and this group member of mine is like so annoying, tanye soalan tak tau nak jawab. ugh. ape ape je la. i is want to continue doing my work.

hope my day will be better tmr. goodnight! :D

so..... i decided to come back to onsugar and not abandon my blogs anymore. haha cause i have quite a few and the last time i updated was last year? or 2 years ago? hahaha not sure la. the reason why i think i should go back to blogging (not saying that i'm an active blogger last time hehehe) is because some things have been very hard for me and i dont think i can tell anyone without crying. hmm, actually i dont think i can blog about it without crying too. heh. but i think i need to find something that can make me feel better when i feel down. so other than eating chocolate (I LOOOVVEEEE!) or ice cream and get fat and then get more frustrated with myself, i think i should blog again yay.

hmm okay lets start, something bad happened today. i fought with my boyfriend, again. why? because i didnt text him today. why? because he hurt me ytd and i needed some time alone. okay, i admit its partly my fault for not texting him in the morning and because of that he woke up late for his project. hais. but then when he texted me in the evening, he sounded sarcastic. so i replied him halfheartedly and he got mad. and then he started accusing me, cause i said i didnt have the mood to text him today. and he said so i have to follow my mood when loving him too? when did i even link my no-mood-to-text-you-today with loving him? (sorry if anyone reading this dont understand my bad english, its been a long time since i updated blogs or write essays or compositions so my english and grammar all over the place uh >.<) so the fight continued.... bla bla bla. i was otw home with my mum that time so i had to control my tears so hard my throat was burning. ugh hate that feeling. theeeeennnn, i checked his twitter. my boyfriend, he love to indirect tweet me when he's mad. its okay if you indirect tweet someone something cute or when youre teasing them. but if youre mad, just tell me. dont indirectly tweet something that is obviously for me. and you know what he tweeted, he said i was dumb and immature! i'm a very sensitive girl and im currently pms-ing so that totally hurt me to the coreeee. i was so sad and hurt i almost cried in the bus. i didnt know he was that mean. how can you call someone you love dumb or something that will really hurt them?? even if youre really really mad. and when i got upset, he said i was blaming him for what happened. i didnt even say anything about blaming him. i even thought about apologizing because i felt guilty too. maybe not texting him at all was wrong too. but when he indirect tweet harsh things to me and accused me of blaming him and not taking initiative bla bla bla i got even more hurt. so when i went home i straight away went into my room and cried so much my eyes got swollen. my mum caught me crying so i had to tell her everything. so yeah, i cried again. my mum got mad too. she said she never liked it when someone comments on her personal life or behaviour.
so i told him what i felt, really felt because im not usually very expressive and most of the time, i keep my feelings to myself. that's also another problem in this relationship, because i dont always show what i feel, he thinks that im not putting any effort. hais, sometimes i feel so confused. he apologized in the end. he says when he gets mad, he cant think straight so he says things he dont mean. i always say, think before you say or do anything. but this is like the forth time! :( for now, i think i should have some time alone and away from him. im not running away, i just need my own space. maybe for a few days? idk. and i hope he wont come to my performances and create a scene. cause i'll be performing for SP open house yay :)

hopefully i will feel better tmr, amin. goodnight loves <3 sleep well everyone~

hello people. the last time i updated my blog was like last month? hahah. so, im updating now:) anw, i just reached home from tuition. its my second time tdy. and will be having choir concert tmr. hopefully nothing goes wrong. have to reach sch at 10 because we have to practice the sec 4 song:( the place where we'll be performing at is super small ah. the stage is very near to the audience. hahah. nvm:) wish me all the best aite:) BYE:D

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heyho:) so long never update alr. anw, this picture is dedicated to ________:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD HAHA! went paramost-ing on friday for the first time after such a long 'break'. so long nvr go fazirah's house. HAHA. had so much fun putting on make-up:DDD

went ECP ytd. the weather there was super hot. so, everybody was like lying down and doing nth. after that went cycling with kak nana and abg takzim and im super dark now. BYE:D

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yay! had adventure racing today. teacher said we travelled 12 km altogether. like WOAHH! hahaha. ran 2km first. eventhough it was the first thing we had to do, i got tired very fast. maybe because it was supeerrr hot? idk. did sudoku at the station and we managed to finish it by one minute. thats the only station we finished fast ah. after that, did kayaking. veryveryvery fun lah! but the life jacket was smelly. but who cares? i wanna have fun sia. after that, we were instructed to walk along the pathway until we saw another marshal. we walked from bedok all the way to pasir ris park. and then cycled there. we didnt managed to win the first place. shant say what place we came in ah. HAHA! my body is aching right now. but i had fun today:D

P.S.: ilovemyteamSITI:D